Life is New Again!

Well, my life seems to be better nowadays. After working in this company for a few months, I'm able to manage my working days, off days, or any holidays in a manner that the priority comes first, and the least comes next. This is pretty to said like controlling a heavy and complex machine at work, whereas the machine is my life. Yes, my life seems to be complicated these days, but afterall, the more I'm willing to manage it, the more solutions comes. The word 'complicated' may refer to the numbers or clusters of problems or programs that I need to work with, as a part of my beings. There are a number of problems and a corresponding programs to deal it with, and its a part of my jobs.
With more problems solved and the programs benefited my life, I feel that much of my problems met my own shape of lifestyle, instead. I love doing some unique and special activities that other people don't think they'll love it, or they just said that its the dangerous things!

After the discovery of my own life and philosophies beneath it, I seems to be able to find out and glue the problems and needs together. Yes, there is a problem whenever there is a needs. The needs is always vice versa to the problem. There is always been a match. The truth is, I never found the solution of this puzzle for the long-long time ago, in the galaxy far-far away.

But why? Maybe all of the reader will wonder this in their mind, but this may be due to the speciality or uniqeness of some individual or its easy to say its a gift from God, where my goal takes a long path, long time and a long step to go.

This has been proved or promised earlier by my mom; she is the only one who has the greatest words in order to get my life on their track.

So, after a huge discovery which takes about some years, I found myself that the minor problems in my mind is just a piece of gifts, and I will call it my master of source in my life(like a gold) from now on.

Before I notice this things, I always blurred and annoyed myself because I do looked weird and strange compared to the others, but after I discovered it myself(with the help from the God, of course), I get the big clue and chance to re-follow the path from the beginning! I hope that I will pay back what I've done wrong or whatever that has makes people upsets. This is just a beginning!

Mission Accomplished!

A few days ago, I've accomplished one of my missions - making people believe of my abilities. I've completed the task, which is a project of an information system, developed using MS Access. Although its look simple, but there are a lot of 'wires' instead. As I've built it, it becomes a proof to those who are unaware or unsatisfied of my product of quality(its more than software product, though!). They've built their own trusts of my works. There are more than one meaning of 'they' for myself, but I will tell you later.

What makes me satisfy is my own jobs. I am the kind of person who rather having a job-satisfying type of personality. I love doing my jobs, I love meeting peoples, discussing about my jobs, tasks, skills and knowledge. But this matter sometimes keeps far away left behind. Many peoples don't agree with this. They do not accept the statement of mine, neither theirs. This was accepted when they saw no match within my minds and physical belongings. Maybe they saw no relationships between what they could see physically and what they could see behind it(non-physically). What they'll like to say is to match what they know about how I look.

This makes me struggling a whole life, just to reach to this point(imagine how irritating was this), and when it's achieved, I could take a deep breath. But this lasts only for a while. There are a dozens, perhaps a billions of it are coming next. But still, I keep in my mind that these are all the tests coming from God, so that I keep trying it. Without the people believes, or support(or no unuseful support) from the third parties, I could being like in the hell.

I hope this gift(believing of peoples about me-although there are more people does now, except for the small community) would coming to me more and more soon.

What I know most if, this could change my life forever!